Today I feel like such a grown up... putting together a research grant proposal. Why is it I can never seem to find the adult words to say in these things?
My brain is tired this week. After resting all of last week, I am thrown into a week of deadlines, exams, and disappointed group members.
Remember when school was exciting and fun?
I try to. I try hard to remind myself.
I try to remember the future it will bring me. When I'm an actual grown up, instead of just playing pretend for a day or two, depending on the assignment. When I will be engrossed in interesting clients and topics and new ideas and inspirations... When I will be helping people. Truly helping them.
Though, my future seems further away these days... no big plans and exciting talk topics. Just exams and deadlines and endless busy work. No talk of places to live and lives together. Just me and my big future. Forging on together, and alone, all at once.
Bright future I'll have. One day, some day... I can see the distant glow.
If only it would hurry up and get here.
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