my once strong heart.

You broke me down
As you broke me in
Took my tall walls down
With your lopsided grin
Your easy way and your future plans
Made it sound like maybe I had always been
On my way to you and your oversized hands
You were strong enough to hold my heavy heart
To lift my head and to kiss my face
Gentle enough to break my shields with your hearty embrace
You held me up and together and in
And then you broke it all when you pulled that pin
And all I had released into your arms
Came toppling, tumbling, pouring out
So here I am, just a puddle and a pile
As I run through our story, mile by mile
I hate you and I miss you and I need you and I loathe you
For leaving me here with nothing left
But the rubble and the dust of my once tall walls
And the sad, slow beating of my once strong heart.

a silent takeover.

ticking of a clock.
passing of the wind.

the sounds outside seem so removed and so clear, the silence inside overwhelming. suffocating. crushing.
faces staring from their frames. smiles glaring from the frozen scenes.

these silent and screaming voices. these grey and vibrant images. the cat stares, wonders why i haven't moved in hours. the TV screen flashes blue, desiring signal. transmission. data. mocking my current state, desiring signal. transmission. data.

the silence. it's taking over.

.haunted.

You've haunted me all my life
Through endless days and countless nights
There was a storm when I was just a kid
Stripped the last code of innocence
You've haunted me all my life

You're always out of reach when I'm in pursuit
Long winded then suddenly mute 
 And there's a flaw in my heart's design
For I keep trying to make you mine

You've haunted me all my life
You've haunted me all my life
You are the mistress I can't make a wife
And you've haunted me all my life

And so I wait but I never seem to learn
How to capture your diminishing returns
I still see through the eyes of a child
Not even thinking we could tame the wild

You've haunted me all my life
You've haunted me all my life
You are the mistress I can't make a wife
And you've haunted me all my life