.vancouver.

I get scared some of the time

my impaired

and to all the signs I am blind

am I asking too much from this little life

so I drive around with a smoke in my mouth

craving the highway, highway now

it's only been weeks

but I'm tired of this town

the cold spreading

breathing down breathing down

so I'm going to Vancouver

if it takes me all day and night yeah

so I'm going to Vancouver

I'm gonna make it alright

I have got so many thoughts running through this brain

what if she leaves me some day

what if my career rolls down the drain

with all this beauty comes so much fear 

I can feel it inside my ribcage

I need a break

I need a change

I need the BC sun, BC sun

so I'm going to Vancouver

if it takes me all day and night yeah

gonna make it alrght

so calm down my little heart

calm down my little world

as I drive through my favourite town

so calm down my little heart

calm down my little world

oh Osoyoos, how I adore you

so I'm going to Vancouver

if it takes me all day and night yeah

I'm going to Vancouver

I'm gonna make it alright

if it takes me all night

I'm gonna make it alright

runrunrun...

I want to run away, where no one knows my name

and I can hide away in the nameless faces

of the other people like me.

I am an idiot.

I wish I had a more poetic way to expresses the complete idiocy I display, but it's really not a poetic trait.

the life and times of an emo blogger...

I just sat down and wrote this, while quiet tears fell.

...and then I took a shower, and went to Superstore.

artful storage.

I wake up every morning

and stretch my arms out wide

it splits my chest right open

i put my heart back inside

i used to keep it in a jar

but this metaphor has gone too far

and now it's just a work of art

on my wall and in my mind.

unchained melody.

I miss you.

I miss your skin, and your smile, and your laugh, and your tears.  I miss the things I thought I despised, and I miss the things I knew I couldn't live without.

I miss your touch, and your kiss, and your embrace.  I miss you telling me it will all be okay.  I miss telling you I'll never leave.

I miss my life, I miss being a part of yours.

But I just can't take it all back.  I can't go back now.  I chose this path, and I chose it for myself.  I chose it for a reason, even though I sometimes have no idea what that reason may be.

I miss you everyday.  And everyday I wake up wondering when this will lead me back to you.  I can't imagine that it won't.... It would be a cruel twist of fate to finally feel and it be for nothing.  But when that day comes, it will be freeing.  Like a bird released from a lifelong cage, and I will love you.

and love you.

and love you.

forever.

breaking up is hard to do... because that's what makes it worth it.

Read this article.

Seriously.

Do it.

http://www.autostraddle.com/the-best-break-up-advice-youll-ever-get-84054/