sweater weather.

Sometimes the sadness takes over and all you can do is hide the way we did as kids
Build a fort inside your mind filled with all the memories that haunt your heart
Surround yourself with all the things you can't live without
Like guilt and regret and second thoughts
What if's, could be's, and should have done's

Slip on the melancholy like an old thick sweater and hunker down for a long cold winter

Thinking of you makes my heart sing and sob, ebb and flow, cool and burn

A never-ending roller coaster sailing effortlessly and tirelessly through a life that doesn't know how to live

With or without you, or this darkness, this confusion, uncertainty

On and on until I die, an endless cycle of missed opportunity, broken hearts, empty souls, and meaningless existence

Tethered forever to you

And this sadness

Inside my haunted fort

Wearing my melancholy sweater

The one with my heart stitched tightly on its sleeve.